Graduation

It has been a year since my last post and it has taken the imminence of a huge change in my life to jolt me out of hibernation. Yes, I will be graduating again and this time I am not joining another school... Life will not revolve around school anymore..

Whenever faced with something big, something life changing, there is a specific moment when I truly and completely become aware of the magnitude of the change. The associated anxiety just hits and overwhelms me suddenly. I have been planning for life after school for some time - applied for jobs, OPT, H1B etc etc but never really realized the implications of this.. Today I did.. Today was my last chance to sit in a lecture for a certain course and work on a homework for a different course. Tomorrow is perhaps my last chance to sleep thru a lecture. This is the last week when I can wake up at noon and still be in time to start my day. These are the last few days in which the objective of my daily routine is just to 'learn'. I realized today how essential the role of an educational institution has been in my daily life. Since I can remember, life has revolved around school and education. It will no more.

Am I ready for this? I dont know... What is the goal of my life now? I dont know... It was very clear until now - I had to study hard and get good marks in 10th standard so that I join a reputed junior college.. I had to get great grades in 12th to join a good engineering college and so on.. What must I do now? Life has never been so open before. There have been decisions to make in the past but someone always took them for me or atleast influenced me strongly enough. Now, I must choose the path myself.

Well, change is inevitable, life moves on and so will I. The best thing about life in an educational setting is that no matter what, you have to keep learning. That is one attribute I surely want to carry with me to this next phase of life. I must keep learning, I must keep evolving!